Good News!

So, my mom teased me that I said it was good news that my dad has malignant cancer and I thought it would be good to rephrase this post. Bad news: the cancer is malignant. Good news: it should be treatable and it's caught early enough that the cancer isn't to the most aggressive stage yet. Hopefully this post makes a little more sense now. :)

Valentine's Day

Confession: I've always hated Valentine's Day. Ok, not always but from the age of 16ish on I dreaded the holiday. I have to admit that I am horrible at getting gifts! Horrible. I think I know someone and then as soon as I have to do something planned and special, I have no idea what to do. So, I didn't hate Valentine's day because I was always single but because I always had to figure out something to do for a boy. Girls are supposed to be the romantic ones with creative ideas and boys are supposed to be the insensitive ones. And, I know Valentine's Day is more about guys showing their affection but I always felt like I should do something. And, at the age of 16, what says "I like you" but that's not too mushy or dumb? Even in college, I had no idea what to do for guys I dated. Anyway, I'm just glad I married the man I did and that I know him as well as I do and that he is totally happy with me getting him brown licorice and handwriting a card. Because honestly, between him and I, I'm not the romantic one. At least, not the planned romantic one. :) Our Valentines Day consisted of me feeling sick and him sleeping. Although, he was sweet enough to wake up early and take me to a late dinner at Carinos where I could get salad(another blessed food) and some tortelloni. Thankfully, my love of italian food hasn't totally gone away during pregnancy. I thought it was sweet of him to get up early because he'd only slept a couple hours sunday night before work, then went to school the next day, then slept only 4 hrs. before going to dinner with me. And, he had work again that night and had school the next day so really he just went sleep deprived from Sunday-Tuesday afternoon. We also did a mini celebration on saturday since we knew there wouldn't be a lot of time on Monday. I'm not going to be all mushy on here because it's not really my style(as if I had one) but, I just have to say I'm glad I married the man I did and that I am soo totally comfortable around him and I know that no matter what dumb little gift idea I come up with, he'll be totally thrilled. And then he, of course, always thinks of something cute to do to make me feel special-not only on Valentine's Day but on any day of any old week.

On a non-valentine note: we just found out a few days ago that my dad has a tumor in his bladder. Yesterday they did surgery and removed part of the tumor(some was impossible to get) and took samples of tissues around it to see how aggressive the cancer is. He will mostly likely have more surgery next week to hopefully get more out. Or, if the cancer is super aggressive, to maybe have his whole bladder removed. I don't know. We find out more today...hopefully. Honestly, my dad is an amazing man. He's always been a rock in the family and in the church. Between my mom and my dad, I've had two great examples. I think the two of them have been thru more trials in their lives then most and because of their attitudes, the trials have always made us stronger as a family. And, they've been great examples to me of what love is. So, as I'm typing this, my mom is living at the hospital doing anything she can for my dad because she loves him so much and my dad is being incredibly strong because he knows that things always work out how they should. He never doubts or wavers from that knowledge. I know trials are hard, but it's always a blessing to see just how deep my parent's love for each other goes as they try to support each other thru things.

Dear Morning Sickness,

I knew your absence was too good to last. Time to go stock my fridge with fruit again...

Next time, I'm going to adopt.

It's a miracle!

Finally! My last post was all about me feeling sorry for myself but I can happily say a miracle happened. The morning sickness just went away! A couple days ago I was feeling crappy, thinking there was no way I could put up with feeling the same way for the next 5ish months and then all of the sudden that night, it went away. Weird, but I am soo glad. My lack of food was getting to me and I found myself crying all the time over nothing and then suddenly, I was as happy as could be. I hope it stays this way. I also have some more good news. We found out we're having a boy! I have to be honest...I've been hoping for a girl ever since Jon and I got married. I always thought my first baby would be a girl and I was super set on that until Christmas. Up until Christmas, it didn't even cross my mind that we would be having anything but a girl since that's what I wanted so badly, but...things never happen how we plan. I think the Lord knew I needed a little time to change my mind set so I was pretty much hit on the head in December that my little girl dream wasn't going to happen. So, when we saw the ultrasound today, I wasn't the least bit surprised when the doctor said it was a boy. And honestly, I couldn't have been happier as we watched our little boy rub his eyes and scratch his head on the ultrasound. I'm just happy that the baby seems perfectly healthy and will join us sometime in the middle of July.